So I had planned to write about fears, but man I am just having a rough day! I woke up feeling crummy, the scale and I had a serious difference of opinion, and I just ate a protein bar that I’m quite certain contained rubber cement. So I really need to think positive for a bit. I’m gonna share with you the milestones I’m looking forward to! There is just a handful and they are a bit spread out, but here we go…
#1 – A number I’ve never seen! When I was gaining weight, I never looked at the scale, ever. So there is a large chunk of numbers I never saw. During my prior attempts to lose weight, I did get just a bit below what I am now, so the number below that is my “number I’ve never seen”! It’s not far off! I’m eager to get there!
#2 – Overweight. I’m looking forward to saying I am overweight, not obese. It’s quite a few pounds away. I can do it!
#3 – One hundreds. The day my weight starts with a 1 again, the entire county will hear about it!!!
#4 – Normal Weight. I’ve had a number in my head for years. It’s the very top of the “normal” category. That’s my goal. I may find that I need to do some fine tuning when I get to that point. I’ll cross that bridge when I get there!
Okay, fears… I have 3 main fears right now.
#1 – Losing friend time. I’m afraid people won’t call to “go do…” because it involves food or drinks. I want my friends to know, I’m being fed properly, I am not hungry. I can still go and socialize and not feel temptation. I promise you that nothing on the plate in front of you looks near as good as the scale does when it reveals that new smaller number! I want my friends to know that my food and beverage options will expand as time goes on. I want my friends to continue with life as normal and I will modify it to fit me! Let’s play! 
#2 – Cheese. I love cheese. I have given up SO many things. I have not given up cheese. I have accepted “low-fat / low-sodium” cheese. I have switched to Weight Watchers brand cheese and only allow myself 1/8th of a cup at a meal. I’m having my cheese dammit. I’m afraid the trainer will notice it is part of almost every meal and tell me we have to part ways. I’m afraid that might be the end of the trainer. Take my fast food. Take my coffee. Take my desserts. Just don’t move my cheese!!
#3 – Plateau. Oh I am so very afraid of that plateau that will come some day. Heck, the scale showed no change this morning and I was panicked! It’s too soon! I can’t plateau yet. I know, no change means there was also no gain, so it’s still a win, but man I need to lose!!
Well, that’s all I’ve got for today! I’m definitely looking forward to seeing the trainers and the rest of the gang again tonight! I’m so grateful for them all!!
1 comment:
Friend time is hard for me. It always includes a drink or snacks or dessert or ALL OF THE ABOVE! I feel ya sister. I feel ya.
I too adore cheese. It makes everything better. Like bacon. What about string cheese? It's low cal.
Oh the plateau!!! Don't worry too much about that. It should be a few pounds down the road and then you can switch some stuff up. I really loved Zumba when I did it. :)
I'm excited for this journey for you.
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